My Resolution

Wow. It seems like only yesterday it was the beginning of 2008.

This entry is written with much anticipation for what the year ahead will hold for me. I'm going to be embarking on quite a journey here in a few short days. My semester abroad in Ireland kicks off on the 19th, but I'll be leaving here on the 7th to spend time with my gorgeous girl and then hit up orientation week.

This isn't the first time I'll have been far from home. It will, however, be the first time that people aren't shooting at me while being so. I've been looking forward to this since before the fall semester began, and now it's about to begin. I can't wait!

I'm sure 2009 will unfold with it's own unique set of challenges and opportunities. It's sure started out better then 2008 did. For one, I'm not miserable today! hahaha! I was in such a toxic place a year ago, it's hard to imagine that was even me. This past year was somewhat of an awakening for me. And in shedding the weights of that, I have found myself in a place I never thought possible. I'm happy. More specifically, I'm happy in my relationship. I had forgotten that a partner was supposed to love and nurture you, they are supposed to bring out the better person in you, and they are supposed to be the one person you can't be without.

I'm taking steps to ensure that I'm not without you anymore, Susan.

And that's part of my resolution. I'm not going to be passive in my own life anymore. I've already begun this so it's more of a renewal of sorts. But I won't stand idly by and let the things that I want slip past me. I finally have something worth holding onto, and I'm not going to let it go. No excuses, no regrets. I'll never look back and have to ask "what if?"